Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in ALL your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
oh how hard it is to follow God. When life throws it's garbage at me I feel so small and useless. it becomes hard for me to see God's glory in the moment. I can only focus on my own failures and "should haves". Right now my hopes feel like they are sleeping from my mind and I can't be happy because I can only see the mistakes that i've made so far.
Oh how i wish I knew what career I wanted to pursue. Oh how i wish things were just clearer. Oh how i wish i could have turned in my inroads application sooner. Oh how I wish... *sigh* that is all that has been going through my head since 10am this morning.
At the same time I can see myself nagging to God and i bet you how annoyed he is right now :( I can see how satan is taking over my thinking. I must stay away from these negative thoughts. But I so badly want to figure out a solution or just be given a sign of where He wants me to be! ughh... stop. stop being so selfish. maybe it is time for me to fast....
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