strengths & weaknesses

So since last time I journaled I've become more aware of some of my strengths and weaknesses about myself. 

my strengths:

-patient

-a good listener 

-like to help others solve their problems

-love one on one conversations

-good leadership skills (but only when there is no one else taking that leadership role)

-independent

my weaknesses:

-am able to easily shut down when things are not going right

-still a bit impatient at times when people get on my nerves (it does rarely happen, but when it does my mind seems to be very impatient)

-don't often speak up in large groups unless I feel comfortable that I wouldn't be judged for my opinions

A lot of my weaknesses I think I could work on, but it would take time for me to overcome them.  But I feel that God has helped me realize these things about myself, over the last two weeks, so that I can be prepared for things in the future. 

I've been starting to match up my strengths with some field work in mind. One option was counseling. I like the idea of counseling, being able to have conversations one on one and helping others solve their problems whether that be in a relationship or career wise. What made me choose counseling as an option was when I looked at my strengths and how I interact with people one of the things that I truly admire is one on one time and listening. And I think counseling provides me with an environment where I can practice my strengths, while working on my weaknesses as well. Counseling also gives me the freedom to create an environment and set the tone of a conversation. I don't always have to work under a time constraint and am able to set my own agenda (kinda...probably depending on where I counsel in). But this is not a for sure thing, just an idea and something that I feel that God is helping me notice about who I am as a person and where I could use these strengths and improve my weaknesses; at the moment. 

My career may or may not be stagnate and that is okay. I've realized through God's plan I could never know where he could put me in next, but knowing that in every situation I will be able to learn more about who He is in my life and the kind of person he has created me to be is all part of His grand plan. This past couple of weeks He has truly shown me where my faith lies and how my bond within Him is so much more stronger than I really thought. I hope that in the organizations or the working environments that I will be in, will be Christian based because I couldn't imagine not working for God every day.

Day 1

Welcome to my third blog... lol I wanted to keep all these blogs separate from each other because they all have different ideas that I want to share. This blog, for me, is what the title says it is. A place for me to journal the things I notice, I enjoy, or have a passion for in order for me to find my purpose. The idea of writing about my goals, dreams, and hopes into a journal started in my small group :) For the past couple of years I've been struggling to find a career path and I am now hoping I can figure something out by the end of this summer. I think this will be a great way for me to note things down and see the progress of my searching.  Thank you girls, I don't know how else I would be able to figure things out if it weren't for you guys <3.

Anyways, I am first going to lay down some rules. First and foremost this blog is only for my goals and passions (if I need to blog about politics or news that is for tumblr and if I need to blog about my personal spiritual growth that is for my xanga). I must TRY to write in this blog everyday at the end of the day. Write down things I notice in school or just while walking around doing stuff that I feel compelled to seek after or find out more about. hmm.. I think that is it.

so Day 1:

 Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. - 1 John 4:18

After small group it was a great breather and refresher in God's vision in my life and drive to follow hard after Him. I always feel like when we miss a week of small group my drive to follow Christ seems to dwindle if we didn't meet up after 2 weeks. Today was a good day.... I felt like I appreciated things a lot more and felt like I needed to do my part as a servant of God to notice the little details in my daily life. I've realized that personal relationships with friends and family is something I truly could not live without. We took another survey in my career exploration class I had to rank what I thought were acts of service and my first choice was "talking with a friend"; while voting was my last choice on the list. Personally, I could careless about voting because I think our government system is just in a huge knot. Reflecting on my first choice I've come to realize through work, school, and acquaintances on the street personal relationships with people is my weakness. But the thing that I struggle with is keeping it consistent. Making sure I regularly check up on someone and making the effort to reach out to others. I am a bit introverted so I often like to hide away when my bubble bursts.  So I think it is something I must be aware of and try to find a way to switch on my introvertedness at an appropriate time. Anyways, it's time to go to bed... I'll probably pass out in class again :(