being okay with mistakes

Today I made many boo boos. I was working on this project for one of the editors and I kept making mistakes or wasn't being very detailed in my work. I was probably not being very careful in my work because I haven't been very enthusiastic or excited about work. And truthfully when I was doing the task, I didn't really care about it. But as I reflect on what happened today I realized something, God had just bit me in the butt at an unexpected moment.

She kept telling me to look over my work and rearrange the order of the reports. "Pick the ones that give the biggest story..." This took me two to three tries when it probably should have only taken me one or two tries if I fully understood what she had wanted. I can't really tell if I was frustrated with myself or that I really did not care that I had to keep editing the spread sheet. (Thankfully she is super patient and understanding through it all.) But I want to say in the back of my mind I was probably frustrated with myself. I wanted to seem like I didn't care that I had to keep editing the sheet over and over again. But at the last edit as she kept trying to get through to me at what she was looking for (but it just took me a long time to realize what she wanted by the third to fourth try) she says to me, "to be in this business you have to be very detail oriented... make sure you have things well organized from the story that will pack the punch and the rest of them in the other category that you think will be a good story" (those weren't her exact words, but it's close haha). She apologized for having me to edit the sheet so often in the end (so nice :)). But right when she said "...be very detail oriented", God had my attention.

The pep talk

What I do know is that during my time at this internship I want to work at doing. Even though I may not enjoy the job, I want to utilize this time and get the most out of my experience here. Lets not sit there at the desk and hide because anyone and everybody can do that. But not me. Take action! Be proactive!

I've always worried that if I could not stand up for myself how could I ever stand up for God or people during adversity? So first! Lets improve on standing up for myself  and taking on that risk of coming out of that shell.

Let's no longer make this all talk, but ACTION! I am tired of feeling pitiful. Feeling pitiful for myself is selfish talk.

No more. No longer will I hide.

No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way. (Hebrews 12:11 NLT)

GENESIS 1, 2 & 3

one of the biggest things that God created us to do on earth was TO WORK. To work it and CARE for it (ch2, v15). So when we work, do we handle it with CARE or does it become TOIL?

toil... -.-; Darn Adam & Eve, why did they have to eat from the tree? If only I could do my work with CARE rather than TOIL.

Low-active into Pro-active

I've realized...

i suck at being proactive.

-.-;

...more to come...

A continuous reminder...

Be a vessel that carries love & grace.